I continue to think about this subject. Unforgiveness is one of the major hindrances that can hinder your healing. Listen to what Jesus says in Mark 11:25-26. "And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him and [let it drop](leave it, let it go), in order that your Father who is in heaven may also forgive you your [own] failings and shortcomings and let them drop. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your failings and shortcomings." Happy New Year 2011, I still think this an important message! A quote by Author: Tami Hoag 2007... What purpose does it serve to hold that anger? What good does it do? Hatred is like taking poison and expecting the other person to die of it."

An Opinion... Isn't it amazing that almost everyone has an opinion to offer about the bible (as well as other subjects), and yet so few have studied it (or the subject)? R. C. Sproul, If only one would read before speaking, they would not look so foolish. Yet, I don't want to get in anyone's face... so I keep dropping hints. Does it help? I hope so...)

Saturday, November 6, 2010


On Wednesday my sister and I got up very early, dressed and hit the road.  Again, leaving early in case we met a convoy of farm equipment.  If you have ever been behind a long line of slow moving farm equipment, you know that driving down one long road could add thirty or more minutes to the trip.  My check-in time was for 8:30 a.m.

My Oncologist and the new Intervention Radiologist spent quite a bit of time going over all of the other tests and results.  Then, I was taken in for another Needle Guided CT scan biopsy.  This time my doctor did not want to take any chances the samples would not be enough in quantity or quality specimens.  Right next to the table I was on, the lab set up a microscope and a person to look and make sure all samples were good. 

I found out later that the biopsy samples were not taken from the renal artery mass.  Everyone seems to be afraid to mess with that one!    The tissue was removed from the kidney.  Pro's and Con's on that hit my brain.  In the beginning, it was explained to me why that procedure should only be a last result test.  From what I remember, when removing the needle from the body cancer cells can drop from the needle.  This action can leave damaged cells along the path of the retreating needle.  Okay, the doctors are getting frustrated so maybe this was a last resort to diagnosis the type of cancer.  Again, there are approximately 70 types of lymphoma and the exact type must be determined.  In addition to the cancer information, was told there was not cancer growth in the chest area, but there is a nodule on my thyroid. 

The hospital decided to keep me longer than I anticipated.  I was not released until 6:00 p.m.  Gloria took me to my son's house to spend the night rather than drive back to Royal City. 

Through the night I was in a lot of pain, as well as bleeding from the uretha again.  This has been on and off since the second biopsy, stent implant, etc.   Before my sister left to go home to tend to her husband (who has cancer) she handed me the discharge paperwork.  Oh yeah, middle of the night, reach for the phone to call the hospital and remember I gave it to Gloria for her trip home in the dark.  Decided to read the discharge paperwork and found that she had given me her current crochet project pattern by mistake.  Ha ha...

Through the evening/night I kept passing blood and clots thru the uretha.  My son offered to drive me to emergency.  I looked at the clock and realized the doctor's office would be opening in just a few hours, so didn't go to ER. 

Thursday afternoon the Urologist removed the stent.  It was completed in the doctor's office.  Quite honestly, with the medicine inserted into the bladder the procedure was not painful.  A bit uncomfortable, but hey... I'll take that over pain any day.    From what I was told by the Urologist, bleeding and clots are common.  Why wasn't I told?  The clots were blocking the uretha passage, and the end result was not pleasant!  Still today (Saturday) having a bit of problem with that.  Think my body is just cleaning out "stuff" from when the stent was in. 

Waiting now,  for the report to tell me what type of cancer I have.  After that is determined, the Oncologist will decide the treatment.


  1. Marie, you are so sweet to take the time to comment on my blog with all you are going through! Believe me, you are just as much an encouragement to me! It was lovely to read your kind words today and food for my own soul! I also know what it is like to be prayed for in a time of need and uncertainty, and to receive such blessings from faithful friends and family. To feel the power of prayer at work is a huge blessing, not quite describable in words. There is a tug at the heart...a feeling which is possibly unknown to anyone but you...but when you feel God's hand upon you and the warmth of His spirit comforting, counseling, and guiding understand it! I know you do! I also have felt that power and am extremely grateful for the peace that comes with it.

    Now, I will continue to pray that the mass is indeed smaller than what they thought...I will continue to pray for healing!

    You are a great example of strength! Peace to you dear friend...and love! Lorraine

  2. Praying for you and believing WITH you that God's hand is upon you and that His peace that passes all understanding will surround you and sustain you. Love Jaime