I continue to think about this subject. Unforgiveness is one of the major hindrances that can hinder your healing. Listen to what Jesus says in Mark 11:25-26. "And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him and [let it drop](leave it, let it go), in order that your Father who is in heaven may also forgive you your [own] failings and shortcomings and let them drop. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your failings and shortcomings." Happy New Year 2011, I still think this an important message! A quote by Author: Tami Hoag 2007... What purpose does it serve to hold that anger? What good does it do? Hatred is like taking poison and expecting the other person to die of it."

An Opinion... Isn't it amazing that almost everyone has an opinion to offer about the bible (as well as other subjects), and yet so few have studied it (or the subject)? R. C. Sproul, If only one would read before speaking, they would not look so foolish. Yet, I don't want to get in anyone's face... so I keep dropping hints. Does it help? I hope so...)

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Can't wait for Spring to get here...

Author unknown, but I thought it was cute and
appropriate considering our current weather.
Can you believe it is the end of February and we had a little bit of snow, and single digit temperature... again?  I am ready for Spring and Fall...  note I didn't say summer with the blistering heat.  Maybe it is the chemo, but I am not handling the cold weather this year.  Shock to those who know me, but I am wearing socks all of the time!  I don't like shoes and socks... flip flops are my shoe of choice.

Grandson won by a pin... yeah!

I have really enjoyed watching my grandson wrestle.  It reminds me of when his father wrestled and I enjoyed that too.  The season, middle school, started and stopped so soon... can't wait until next year.

 This week I have had to make a decision on which doctor appointments to make, or keep. Since my oncologist wants to see me more often, the other appointments have to go.  I had cancelled an appointment with him this week.  There were no issues, money was short.  So I called in "before" and told them I would not be able to keep my appointment.  Then I asked if they could go ahead and schedule my CT scan for this coming week, and I would come in for a follow-up afterwards.  The CT scan will be on my kidney and renal artery.  (It is hoped that the chemo has reduced the size of mass.)  No, that would not work.  I have to come in to see him before he will order the CT.  I don't understand as we have discussed this scan several times.  So, I go in, no issues to discuss... so that he can order the CT?  That is going to cost me close to $100.00 out of pocket just to get the CT ordered.  Frustration! Doctors do not understand that co-pays, gas to and from the appointment, and 20% all add up.  On a limited income, I have had to make decisions.  Today I was honest with the nutritian center.  I told them that my income only stretched so far, and my oncologist appointments were going to be more often, so I would have to reschedule for another time.  So, now what do I tell my primary physician who is monitoring my glucose, blood pressure, etc.?

Guess I will be having a yard sale soon.  I shouldn't complain, as my situation is better than some, and for that I really am greatful. 

The bruises on my throat from the thyroid biopsy are almost gone.  I am still saying "thank you" for the good report. 

Is my chemo brain still an issue?  A great big YES.  It is frustrating for me to know that I have done something before, yet cannot figure out how to currently do it.  I am writing myself notes, and then can't figure out the notes later.  Now isn't that fun?  I understand that this condition will be better once I am thru treatment.  I can't wait! 

1 comment:

  1. Hi Marie!
    I can't wait for spring either! If it will make you feel any better, I wear socks ALL the time. I'm always cold!

    I'm praising God with you about the thyroid biopsy and I am also hoping that your
    "chemo brain" will soon return to normal!

    My prayers remain with you, dear Marie!