I continue to think about this subject. Unforgiveness is one of the major hindrances that can hinder your healing. Listen to what Jesus says in Mark 11:25-26. "And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him and [let it drop](leave it, let it go), in order that your Father who is in heaven may also forgive you your [own] failings and shortcomings and let them drop. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your failings and shortcomings." Happy New Year 2011, I still think this an important message! A quote by Author: Tami Hoag 2007... What purpose does it serve to hold that anger? What good does it do? Hatred is like taking poison and expecting the other person to die of it."

An Opinion... Isn't it amazing that almost everyone has an opinion to offer about the bible (as well as other subjects), and yet so few have studied it (or the subject)? R. C. Sproul, If only one would read before speaking, they would not look so foolish. Yet, I don't want to get in anyone's face... so I keep dropping hints. Does it help? I hope so...)

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Time Flies...
The bad news is time flies...
The good news is you're the pilot.
---Michael Althsuler,

I can't believe that so much time has passed since I last posted.  Let me first say that while the above is true, I feel as if I have been a drunken pilot these past seven or more days. 

For the past week I been out of sorts.  The end result is that I lost (days) time!  After becoming confused, disoriented, weakness,  forgetting, and well just acting strange; plus being physically sick... my sister took me to the hospital and left me there!  Gloria's favorite phrase is "fix her and I will take her home."  It was all done in love, but I do remember a long time Gloria...  or I think I do.

Seriously, this month we thought was going to be a good one... no hives like last month, no problems.  Wrong.  I am  still not sure of what all went wrong.  One thing for sure was by having uncontrollable nausea and gastrointestinal issues my potassium level dropped too low.  (This is going to be a topic that I research and post on my other site.  In the meantime look at  )  Also, my WBC (white blood cells) were off, platlets low, glucose and blood presssure out of order. 

I still do not know if this latest set back was chemo induced, or a bug.  My oncologist ran tests and said it was not a chemo reaction.  That diagnosis was not backed up by  tests the hospital ran.  The ER could not locate anything virus or bacteria.  So???  It all seemed so "flu like" to be strictly a chemo reaction.  Also, there was no reaction like this post chemo last month.  The doctor said that to have this much problem now, I should have reacted last month too.

During this time of confusion, due to low potassium, my sister related she knew I was in trouble when:

On the trip to the hospital I sat in the back seat (odd as I don't like the back seat).  Even though it was dark outside, I located my nail clippers and proceeded to diligently work on... no not my  nails, rather dismanteling the clippers.  Why?  Your guess is as good as mine.  Then, even though Gloria was driving I wanted her to take them and fix them. 

I honestly don't remember most of the week, who I spoke to or what I said.  Which brings up another issue.  I won't say what I said when the doctor asked me a question, but evidentally everyone was suprised by my answer.  No...  no cussing, but it could have promoted a political discussion.  Ask anyone who knows me, I don't do political arguments these days.  I just cannot handle to negative energy.  So, that was a suprise to me. 

There is more, but you get the point.  I am taking Klor-Con M20 APA to help bring my potassium back up.  Still feeling queasy, so taking Zofran (ondansetron).  The doctor said that Lorazepam also helps with nausea/queasy systems.  The Prochlorper did not even phase the upset stomach, so stopped taking that.  Another update on my medicine log.  Seems like I only need to print one log each week as it changes so often.

The log I am referring to is a sheet I take with me everywhere.  This has all of my contact, insurance, doctor, health issues, surgeries and year, medicine and supplement information, etc.  It is so handy to just pull it out and hand it to admitting.  I also put the latest revision date. 

Well, I know that I am better.  I remember to keep coming back to the computer to finish this post.  Trust me, that wasn't happening. 

I am very  thankful to my sister, brother-in-law and children during this ordeal.  My son spent his night off work keeping me in line at the hospital. Both he and my daughter-in-law came to the hospital helping and encouraging me.   My daughter, all of her positive thoughts were felt as far as the 1,000 miles that separate us.  Space is not relevent where the heart is involved. 

I am going to be a few days catching up on posts, reading comments, answering facebook and emails. 


  1. Dear Marie,
    I also wanted to put a P.S. on your note because I didn't want you to feel like you had to do anything with this award other than accept it...

    But, since I was honored to receive it, I couldn't resist passing it on to some other lovely people like you! You deserve more than an award...and the best award is the one we find in Christ!

    Your faith is a testimony and I am honored to know you and to pray for you! Blessings sweet friend! xo

  2. Marie, I'm sorry that you had a tough week. You ARE so positive, and again, you continue to find the humorous moments mixed in with all the trials.

    I pray for a better week ahead!