I continue to think about this subject. Unforgiveness is one of the major hindrances that can hinder your healing. Listen to what Jesus says in Mark 11:25-26. "And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him and [let it drop](leave it, let it go), in order that your Father who is in heaven may also forgive you your [own] failings and shortcomings and let them drop. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your failings and shortcomings." Happy New Year 2011, I still think this an important message! A quote by Author: Tami Hoag 2007... What purpose does it serve to hold that anger? What good does it do? Hatred is like taking poison and expecting the other person to die of it."

An Opinion... Isn't it amazing that almost everyone has an opinion to offer about the bible (as well as other subjects), and yet so few have studied it (or the subject)? R. C. Sproul, If only one would read before speaking, they would not look so foolish. Yet, I don't want to get in anyone's face... so I keep dropping hints. Does it help? I hope so...)

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Saturday was a good day!

Yesterday, while waiting for Thursday to come, was a good day!  Junior picked me up in Royal City and we drove to Kennewick for Brandon's football game.  Before the game Brandon mentioned a large player on the other team, hmmm.  The game went on for a long time before anyone scored, and guess who made the touchdown?  Brandon #5!  It was a good play, he did other stuff too, but this grandma doesn't know the names of the moves (oops, I am regressing to James' wrestling days).  I guess in football it is plays.  Another touchdown by a teammate and they won the game 12-0, yes!  After the game Brandon stayed at the field with friends, while James, BeeAnna, Junior and I went to Famous Daves for a great lunch and visit.  Never too old to learn something, James educated me in how to order my lunch.  Per James, it is redundent to say Cod Fish, as everyone knows Cod is fish.  I asked then why is Cat Fish listed directly above.  Well, duh... If I just said cat that would be totally different than getting a variety of fish, and also hamburger isn't ordered Hamburger Cow is it?  Learn something new from my intellectual son all of the time. ha ha. 

So now, it is Sunday and I have 4 1/2 days to wait until the biopsy. 

I am not really stressed like panic setting in.  But my body is stressed because I can't get to sleep until really late.  I have tried the Ambien, sure doesn't work on me like it does in the advertisements.  So, I called again, and was given Lorazapam.  Have tried it, and I still have a difficult time shutting my brain down and going to sleep.  I think I will give up on prescriptions to sleep and just go with the flow... probably healthier anyway.  Also, I can't concentrate long enough to work on a project, read book, watch TV, so I just skip from one thought to another.  At the same time, I feel comfortable that I am in the Lord's hands.  That is what is important to me right now, how I really feel.  And I know what is in my heart. 


  1. Sweet Bella Marie, I am a friend of Justina's from Albuquerque, and just wanted to leave a note to tell you that I am praying for you and will be diligent to lift you up on the 30th during the biopsy. I have started two different prayer chains who have been faithfully checking in with me to get updates from Justina - and now we can follow your blog too. I simply do not understand why life washes together the way it does sometimes, and quite frankly - I know it's none of my business. Being given the sterile blueprint would muck up all the art of living, as much as I'd like to see it sometimes. But I DO believe with all my heart that GOD uses EVERYTHING! Even the darkest moments of our lives... HE uses even those times to bring us into HIS sweet sweet presence and do something remarkable within us that we could have never anticipated. I am sending embraces your way, all my love, Jaime Carrillo

  2. Dear Marie,
    I'm also a part of the prayer chain and a friend of Jaime! We are faithfully lifting you up for much needed strength during this time! I can't pretend to know the reason behind these trials, but I do know that God will walk through them with us as he promises to never leave us nor forsake us. It sounds like you are already a strong woman and I know that God will provide every added ounce of strength you need for the journey! Thank you for having the courage to put all of this out here in the open and to share your journey with us! I'll be praying big time for your procedure on Thursday! The God of all comfort is with you and He is able!
    With much love, Lorraine