Making a list, checking it twice...

Finding something to keep my mind occupied when not feeling well (or supposed to be resting) is my next goal (task).  Focus on a goal has been one of the things that keeps me going during hard times.  I have plenty of physically active projects, now I am making a list of inactive things to accomplish. 

I am just beginning this journey with cancer, then add in my high blood pressure, SVT, diabetes, high cholesterol, etc.  What do you have now, but a recipe for times I will have to take a break from physically challenging tasks.  I don't like to be told to stay down, so I fight it.  In the end, pushing myself has begun to hurt and prove my loved one's right and me wrong.  Oh gosh... another time I am admitting being wrong!  It is not my intention to make fun of myself... just have to laugh at this discovery of mine or I will cry.  I am afraid that this newly discovered truth about myself  is about to become a habit. 

During this past week or so, I have had more down time.  While "resting" my mind goes like a movie projector (dates me doesn't it... young people probably don't know what a projector is) and doesn't want to stop.  I review what I should be doing; projects not completed; health issues that need addressed; whine to myself about why I can't get up on the storeage shed roof and pound nails into the roofing that is flying away, harvest apples from the tree, pull weeds, set up my sewing area, etc.

Monday I received a call from the oncologist's office, comfirming the time, date, location and instructions for the PET/CT scan.  Thursday,before my oncologist appointment, will begin early.  I'll have to leave Royal City by 5:30 a.m. and arrive early at the hospital to obtain my contrast drink.  The next two hours will begin my yummy drink schedule.  My goal is to shut my eyes and imagine myself drinking a nice, hot coffee that is laced with cream, caramel flavoring... mmmmm.  After this, I will take a half hour (or  more) rest in the donut hole (CT machine).  What an imagination... I am visualizing coffee and donuts to keep me going until I can eat.  Stop... that is not going to happen soon, as I have another appointment to keep as soon as I finish the CT.  The worst part is that I have to pass the hospital cafe and coffee kiosk on the way to my oncologist office.

Prayers for this appointment, as I am hoping to receive definate answers to my questions.  The doctor's educated guess was good to receive, but I really want to know what "is" going on with me.

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